well, well. not much has happened but im significantly emotionally effected (kinda funny (haha funny) considering the unfortunate events that befell my friends mentioned in the last journal.)

so, i went to the sixth form art and photography exibition (i am apparently the only person capable of forgeting we have parents nessessitating a quick trip back home) and said bubye to people i'll likely never see again. really just two actually. though max isnt that important (to make it mean) because i can potentially meet him on the street.

said 'bubye' to ariella aswell who i will miss for being a very interesting person to know. i have no idea why. but any frienship that starts by asking each other for the time is a goodun'. so, we wished eaach other 'good luck with life' enhanced through nonsense hand gestures. then felt mutually uncomfortable by the fact neither one of us left for haldf an hour (and is SO difficult having converstions after saying bye). so, the first person in..............a bit more than a year that i will miss never seeing.

dont have much more to say other than that there is a new addition to the fearful dread list of dreadful fear. dont worry about it too much, its a personal list. of 3 things that scare me (i seem to have a limit to things im scared of). for one thing, macdonalds woman is no longer on there (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. see? given enough time i can overcome any fear...........that said number one of the list hasnt budged in 3 years) and jo is now 3rd. this is due to the fact that no matter how scary and superstrong jo is, she can alway be appeased by lollypops and cigarettes..

NOW, the new number two. elina. who i am completely fine with util i remember the SCAAAAAAAARRRRY(!!!!) makeup pictures which are horrifying! gah! (probably on account of her still being very beautiful beneath creepy creepy makeup. jokers got nothing on her)

so, i know this isnt a very good journal so i hope that the next one is more full of whimsy for your amusement.

well, a memorial to a friend gone and a new terrible fear. things are looking up arent they?

esposito (MUHAHAHAHA! YOU SHALL NEVER (likely) KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!)